failure

I feel i have failed terribly.
But where did i..
my father who is now at Palakkad calls me and tells
that he has arrived in my brother's house by morning train.
my brother's son picked him from railway station.

I wondered.. I am alone at my house which is nearer to railway station.
But yet he has arranged with my brother.
When i asked him whether he is coming to my house, he said that he
wants some rest and would come in the evening.
I receive a call from him by 3 pm and he says that he is coming to my
house and enquired whether i will be there.
When he came to my house, i talked for a while and asked him
whether he would like to stay back. He says that all his tablets are
at Kalady ( my brother's house).
Earlier he was saying that he had difficulty pulling on with my wife.
but if that was the reason, why he preferred to stay at Kalady which was
away from the town whereas sreevaraham is very near temples,and is in the
town..

I felt very sad that my father calls me to find out whether i am available
for him to visit..why is is very formal..what prevents him to be assertive
on me and to say that he is coming and staying with me..
what part of my behaviour does that..

I always fought with padmaja to give him more respect
i dont remember any incident that i disrespected him.
but i dont know to show any love and affection. I keep them in my heart.

But i remember an astrologer once said.. that i wont get any love
and affection from any quarters...